The Motorshow was a disappointment. SO glad I did not pay to get in. Many of the luxury and big brands weren't there. 

Today was Korice's last day in TMX. I'm going to miss her.. After so many comings and goings in the company, I'm sort of immune to all of it already. Since I joined SIM in 2007, I have seen at least 13 ppl leave the company, some for a better job, others for reasons too complicated to tell. It's going to be my turn soon. I wonder what I will feel then. 

A contradiction

I just did a personality test on facebook. It was FULL of contradictions. :/

And I think I like belong to the erm, minority group?

Openness - 51%

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 5.5% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is down-to-earth and prefers things to be simple and straightforwards. You might say that it just makes life easier if things don't change unnecessarily, that the arts are of no practical use to you, and that you think tradition is more important than others do.

Conscientiousness - 40%

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 11.5% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is impulsive and whimsical, and fine with it! From your responses it appears that you would say that sometimes decisions need to be made quickly, and that you make them quicker than most! You would say you are zany, colourful, and just generally great fun to be with... as long as someone isn't relying on you to get some work done.

Extraversion - 31%

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 5.5% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is quiet and somewhat withdrawn. Your answers describe you as someone who doesn't need lots of other people around to have fun, and can sometimes find that people are tiring.

Agreeableness - 51%

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 21% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who people can find difficult to get along with when you first meet, as you can be suspicious of their motives. Your responses suggest that over time though people warm to you, and you to them, although that doesn't stop you telling them "how it is".

Neuroticism - 41%

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 46% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is generally calm. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can feel emotional or stressed out by some experiences, however your feelings tend to be warranted by the situation.

Then..

Jungian Typology Estimate

ISTJ

Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging

ISTJs thrive on organisation. They keep their lives and environments well-regulated. They bring painstaking attention to detail in their work and will not rest until satisfied with a job well done. ISTJs are faithful, logical, organized, sensible, and earnest traditionalists. They earn success by thoroughness and dependability. Shutting out distractions, they take a practical, logical approach to their endeavors. Realistic and responsible, they work steadily toward their goals. They enjoy creating order in both their professional and personal lives. ISTJs are persons of thoughts and (sometimes) emotions. They prefer dealing with the present and factual, using various options to make decisions.

Happys

I'm feeling quite happy now. I just found out that the iPod touch is going about $100 cheaper! Yay!

I lost my wallet 2 Sundays ago. :( 

But, surprisingly, I did not feel really sad. Just sort of irritated with the person who took my wallet and DID NOT bother sending back my IC, and with having to take the trouble to go down to ICA to make my IC.

Just signed up for Facebook. Kinda stuck on it now, it being a novelty and all that. 

Confused

I'm in a serious state of confusion now.

I'm going crazy trying to figure out the direction to go in for my further studies. AAAHHHH!!!!

Fishes in the Sea

My office has a water feature with a few fishes living in it. Those fishes are the most timid fishes I have ever seen. They "fee-eew" off to hide when they see somebody looking at them. Once I decided to feed them. I purposely waited silently after pouring the food in to see if they will come out for the food. So after a while, I saw them shooting out of their hiding place one by one to grab the food, then shooting back to the hiding place immediately like some kind of covert op.

 

God's grace

I have something that I must share!!

It is now 12.33 AM Friday morning. I'm on leave today cos I'm going to KL with my relatives for the weekend. I wanted to send out an work email at about 11.40PM from home. But when I logged in, I saw an email from a magazine chasing for an ad! *horror* I'm at home, my laptop is in the office, my thumbdrive is new meaning I don't have the working file for the ad with me, AND my com is new so I don't have the software I need in my com! How bad can this get? Plus, the ad is for an August/September issue. It is already 8 August. 

Anyhow, I replied to the email, while scrambling to download the necessary softwares and find the raw visual for the ad so that I can do the ad. 

Then, the lady replied and told me to send her the ad by next Tuesday. I really have nothing to say. His grace is really, astounding. I was even contemplating getting my father to drive me to the office when he comes back from work later so that I can use the laptop I left there. 

Time and time again He just renders me helpless and shows me that He is aware of everything around me and wakes me up from my apathy. :)

My day

Long ago photos from my 21st birthday party in May below..

I guess the only thing that went wrong that day was the popiah filling. It went bad. So we executed Plan B and got out a 2nd batch with the help of my aunts. So the 2nd batch was like very chunky cos the vege were cut in a hurry.

Anyways, was kinda disappointed that a lot of my colleagues couldn't make it. But it's alright, because my house was bursting at the seams with YA. They seriously filled up my entire living room. And because they were busy watching Transformers, didn't even got to talk to them proper.

ANYWAYS, I love my pressies! I really did get some surprises like Koricey's, Corrin's, Calvin's and Zann's and Cheng and gang's. Thanks all of you! :)

Feel old though. 

I just took my first MC for this year. Woke up with a swollen left eye in this mrng, gave myself a small shock. 

I've been busy every night making something for my colleague's wedding present, so I haven't had the time to update the blog. 

There.. basically isn't much going on in my life. I do have things happening, but I don't feel like talking about them. I also have thoughts and feelings I would to blog about, but they make me a little sad, so I'd rather not.

I've been back a few weeks from church camp but haven't had to chance to blog properly about it. Don't have all the photos with me yet also. 

We just started on this Caring Evangelism course in church, and we were doing this exercise that got me thinking. 

We were to list down the 5 most impt things in our lives besides God. After which we have to cancel them out one by one according to their importance until there is only one left. That item has the highest possibility of being a false god in my life.

But I got stuck when I had to choose between church and friends. Actually, I got stuck at item number 5. I had no idea what to put down. That's a little sad isn't it? 

Anyways, I'll be back with photos from my birthday and the camp soon. Catch you then.

Church Camp!

I'm leaving for church camp tmr! 

The word "camp" is kinda misleading, I know. We're just going to a resort in JB for a retreat. Camp just sounds more, for the lack of a better word, personal than retreat.

I'm really excited about this one 'cos almost all the youths are going! Except for BK n Julia :(

Hopefully we won't be so tired this time round.

I'll be back with photos! :)

Just wanted to say that I'm really excited abt church camp. :D

The iMac has landed

We finally replaced our old PC with the iMac yesterday. It is really really very cool. Apple really wins hands down in terms of aesthetics. I have not used the Mac yet, so I can't say anything about its contents, but just simply the look of it is enough. Everything is so streamlined from the computer itself to the keyboard.

I had thought the question I did not dare voice out was quite "sua-gu". But later I found out that it wasn't. And yes, the monitor is all there is to the entire iMac, excluding the keyboard and mouse of course. The hard disk, processor, speaker, and web camera are all built in the monitor itself. How cool is that?

My sister is thinking of having a "open iMac" day. I told her the idea's kinda crazy. But just let me know if you want to come and experience my iMac. :P I have yet to see if it is better than the MacBook.

Something is wrong with me. I feel so un-excited about things nowadays. It's like I haven't recovered from ADEX/BA and there is a distance between me and the rest of the world. Or even worse, like there is an invisible barrier around my heart and mind and the things that are happening are not getting to me.


I just feel like taking a few days off, go to a nice resort all by myself, and spend all day and night reading, lazing around, and order room service. I'm sure I won't die of loneliness.


What's bothering me most is that I'm feeling this huge reluctancy to do things related to church. I'm fine with outings and all that; it's the responsibilities part I'm having trouble with. The worst is that I can't get myself to pray to Him. Not in corporate prayer, nor group or personal. I feel so distant to the extent that I'm reading a novel every night when I read my customary chapter for the day.


Today was Amy's last day at TMX. I hate separation, but it always comes around.


Work is piling up again.

This job has really shown me my many weaknesses. For the lack of better words, it has been a humbling experience.


I just finished reading Mercy by Jodi Picoult. Her books are controversial and this one talks about euthanasia, or mercy killing. As the story unfolds, I get the feeling that the story is not about mercy killing, but more on mercy itself. Or to make the difference clearer, forgiveness. In the book, the 2 main characters, husband and wife, are not the ones in the mercy killing, though they are very involved. The wife loves the husband more - 70/30. The husband is first attracted, then falls in love with the wife's new assistant.

I have this tendency of getting too involved with the books I read. I sometimes forget they are fiction and start to judge the things they do as if I were reading of it from a newspaper. As I read the book, I kept shaking my head in disapproval at the choices the husband made, and the things that were going through his head. What I most disliked was how he comforted himself at the end when the mistress left and he decided to stay with his wife.

But, I just love how the wife gathered all his possessions and sold them in a garage sale after she found out.

Then my mind started wondering. if my husband ever has an affair with another woman, and worse, falls for her, will I forgive him and continue ours lives like before knowing well that he loves somebody else?

They're over, but it still goes on

The shows are finally over. Yesterday was the last day of BA08. But I still feel kinda surreal about the past 2 or 3 weeks; just cannot believe that the two events are over and that the days of working from 9am to 11pm or later are over.

Now that I finally have a life, I need to start planning for my 21st birthday celebration next month, come up with my wishlist (:P), and pack up/continue decorating my room.

The celebration should be on 18 May (Sunday) from 2pm onwards, at my house. Will be cutting the cake at about 4pm. Everybody's invited! Space is limited at my very humble abode though.

As for my wishlist..... please see below :)

1. iPod Touch
2. Bagsssss
3. Jack Johnson Albums
4. Anything pretty and frivolous that you think I will like
5. Accessories
6. Basically anything you think I'd like


I hope this is good enough. :P

Busy busy!

Alrights, I have officially not blogged for 1 month and 3 days since I last blogged. Mmm, record? I think so.

The thing is, something is wrong with my blog now. I can't see my entries on the blog itself.

Nothing spectacular happened/happening to me, only that I return home all tired from work that I'm too lazy to use the computer. So people rarely see me online at night nowadays.

But work has been good! I think I'm the only who thinks so though. :(

I know Mummy has been dreading work ever since Herman started holding her responsible for the sales. And now Koricey is feeling too stressed as well. Thus my nick on MSN. Koricey asked me about it this mrng, but I didn't know how to explain to her.

I'm either too dense or too happy. A little of both, I'm thinking. But I thank God I like what I'm doing, and my colleagues are great. Stress is inevitable, especially since we're in events; but all's well. :)

I can't say the same for my spiritual life though. It's at an aaaallllllllll-time low. Perhaps it is time to re-align my priorities?

AND, I've finally bought a camera!! I bought this:

Yay! After wanting one for like 5yrs? I finally bought one. Congratulations to me.

I also need to learn to watch my expenses. Big news. *bleah*

Happy Lunar New Year!

As usual, had an enjoyable CNY. We played the Twist Game on the first day. May be better known as Twister or something along this line. You know, the one where you get down on your hands and feet and twist yourselves around. Got us all panting and sweating.

I hope that there will not come a time when I no longer get excited for CNY. I once read a book by Max Lucado, and it was saying that we no longer hate bedtime. When we were young, we used to beg our parents to extend our playtime even though we could barely keep our eyes open. Now, as teenagers or adults, we cannot wait for bedtime, cannot wait to catch a 15mins or even 1hr nap.

I think it is the same for CNY. It used to be highly anticipated when we were young. Nowadays, so many of us are seeking to go overseas during the two days hols instead of taking the time to get together with family and friends. Perhaps it is different for me. My extended family's quite close, thus we don't mind getting together. Whereas others may have horror stories when they meet their relatives during CNY.


On Tues, I received a very, how to say, pleasantly surprising email. That isn't a very apt description and is certainly an understatement. Let's just say that the email certainly lifted my spirits and encouraged me a whole lot. Hopefully I will not give cause to let her regret what she said.

Just a quick entry before I go to sleep seeing that I have not been updating recently.

Do I really not look stressed when I actually am? Good or bad?

It finally feels like CNY because I finally have the $$ for a shopping spree. :P Had a great time shopping with my sister and cousins yesterday (it's after 12 midnight now). It's funny how we're closer now that we're older. Very often it works the other way round doesn't it?

Anyways, back to work a mere 8 hours later. I'm really struggling to meet my boss's as well as my own expectations of myself. And I have yet to make up my mind wrt my further studies plan. I keep changing it. >_<

BUT, none of this is going to mar my CNY! Looking forward to steamboat sessions and gatherings! :))

TMX Show Productions

Look at the uber cool photos taken in the new Marina at Keppel Bay. There weren't any special effects done to the photos.

A Message by George Carlin

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak!

And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If you don't send this to at least 5 people....Who cares?


George Carlin

2008

Okie, review of my previous year.


I was reading through my posts in 2007, and I just miss school soo much! Can't believe that I went from student to work-er in the span of 3 mths. No matter how much I like spending my own money, being a student is still tops. Sigh, shall not linger over this issue anymore. If things work out, I'll become a student again! :))


And I miss Corrin, Denise, Jia Hong and even Calvin! :( Miss the crap we used to dish out on each other daily.


My life in 2007 was generally occupied by 3 main things: work, church and family. Not necessarily in that order. Working from 8.30am to 6pm everyday was sth I had some problems adjusting to because I was so used to short working days in school. Besides work, my other huge commitment was church and with so many things happening in the lower half of the year, things just got quite crazy. And the worse thing was, despite the large amount of time spent of doing God's work, I sort of drifted away from Him in the last qtr of the year. I have no idea how it happened. I just feel like, lost at sea now.


And it's like, when you spend so much time on some things, problems HAVE to occur. They simply cannot stay away. Real irritating.


But I think, the most changes occurred at work. It's a very very long story, and I don't really rmb the details so I'm not gonna tell it here. But to keep the long story short, my company got sold and is now known as TMX Show Productions. Lots of staff change now, and I really really really hope that things will change for the better now.

But I'm really scared that I cannot match up to expectations. Really really scared that I'm not competent enough.

Work was great because of my colleagues. I mean, of course there was a fair share of frustration, but overall, I still thank God that I managed to get this job.

Over breakfast on new year's day, a friend said that he was, perhaps still is, feeling apprehensive about the new year because he didn't have a good 2007. After hearing him, I got sort of depressed too. I feel apprehensive not because I didn't have a good 2007; in fact I had a great one. However, there are just TOO many unknowns this year in my life and I just feel so unsure of myself.

Anyhow, walking in the darkness with God beats walking in the light without Him handsdown. So, I shall have to trust Him. :)

Happy belated New Year everybody!

Phuket Trip

First time to Phuket!

The day before we left I was feeling quite harrassed because the server was down but I had to print some things for our party there, actually it's several things, out before rushing to meet Jia Lin and the rest for dinner.

Woke up bright and early on Thursday morning for our flight at 8am. OK, maybe it wasn't that bright, but it was definitely very early!

The budget terminal is truly, budget. At least they still had Duty Free.

Before we left I was quite confused as to whether I should be excited for the trip, because all of us had the expectation that we'll be going there for team bonding. However, few days before leaving, we found out that more than 40% of the time there will be spent on our own, exclusing bedtime of course. We were a tad disappointed, to say the least.

But it's OK! We had lots and lots of fun there! We didn't really do any exciting things, but the company was great! I guess, at the end of it, we bonded. Photos hereon!

Random

Haven't been reading much lately, mostly due to my desire to in Lala land by 11pm every night. Haven't been spending proper time with God as well. :( Feel distanced now.

Went to watch Chitty Chitty Bang Bang at the Esplanade on Tuesday with my sister. It was nice! Heavy on the pocket though. :/